i'm happy

and i havent been in a while....

:)

just dont feel like it....

things have been crap lately.
havent slept.
no appetite.
anxious.
angry..
so yeah.
thats why you havent heard from me...


on the upside...my youth pastor totally called some kid a fag :] jokingly, of course. <3
i love my youth group. made my week.
and i was amazed to find out how many people actually knew my name!
that was definitely surprising :)

well........

today SUCKED.

cant.contain.EXCITEMENT.!

next friday. Rocktoberfest. be there.

the friday after that.. Morgan Turner's beast of a party!
[my first high school party. Lol. thats lame to say but i wont feel as lame for being the homeschool kid who doesnt get to attend things like that :P ]

the friday after that. Youth Group Bonfire. :) [its about time i do something with them. i'm the loser that never goes to any CYM function]

aaand the friday after THAT... POWERhouse with Debbie =) super excited about that!
a weekend back at camp to reunite with camp friends and learn some Jesus. :)

yaaay for not being at home on fridays!

new challenge.

Learn to Speak up so I can have Healthy Relationships.
good goal, right?

pssh. thats easier said than done. at least for me anyways..
I'm always afraid if I speak up no one will like me.
*thinking of people i know that hate my guts*
*its eating me alive*


why do i let those people bother me so freakin much??

its amazing.........

how your night can go from being so amazingly awesome to so incredibly horrible in just a few short seconds..



i feel sick.

i feel like.......

like i just "came out of the closet" except i didnt. so, no. i'm not gay.
Lol

this has only been a secret for about 6 hours ;)

and, yes. this is my fourth post today.
i said i was inspired.

she's my brain...

my friend, Morgan Turner, has a way of saying what i'm thinking. and i totally and completely love her for that!

tonight she said "Thank you for giving me the life I always begged God for. ♥"


so that is what i'm saying to YOU tonight.
Thank you for giving me the life I always begged God for. ♥

ugh.

so in the ten minutes since i published that last post i'm already tired of this idea.

lame feeling taking over.............

yep, you read it right.

i've got a fever and the only prescription is more cowbell.
no, wait...
darn.


yeah. anyways.
dont be surprised if you come back in a few days and caetiepage.blogspot.com has been deleted.
this makes me feel lame.
i'm tired of keeping my inner thoughts bottled up. :D
Molly inspired me. ;)
but this isnt for me to vent. nooope. not at all.


i just.......idk. i read alot of blogs and i like it and i feel left out. Lol
dont make fun :]